A personal journey of losing a 100lbs. Chapter Two: Own it

Bring to the surface: the courage and energy that goes into making yourself fit and thin involves a large amount of confidence.  

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For most of us there was a time when we had self confidence, the world was moving along at a happy pace, life was easy, and our bodies felt amazing.

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 For whatever reason, that confidence starts to fade. 

The will power to choose small portions, or to just say no to fried sugary foods disappears resulting in making decisions that lead to unhealthy bodies. 

It takes confidence and self respect to obtain a healthy BMI. 

it takes %100 respect and love to achieve goals

What does the confidence for a healthy BMI look like? 

I recently went on a week long trip away from home. Due to traveling by plane, I was unable to bring along food from home, which if I was traveling by car, I would have packed a cooler. I knew that all of my nutrition sources were going to be a challenge. All I can say is; I am so grateful for chicken!

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•  The first night out, I had complete control. I chose to go to the supermarket and purchase healthy food.

• Second night out, I was with friends at a restaurant, fatty chips and dips where along the table and I was so happy to sip my unsweetened iced tea, it is amazing how holding your tea glass in one hand and gently playing with the straw, (swirling it around, quietly poking at ice cubes, hold the straw when you drink from it) kept both of my hands busy and I didn't feel the need to reach for a chip to occupy my time.

•  This is an art in flirting and conversation. I was very silent with the dance I was performing with my tea glass. I still maintained eye contact when I was engaged in conversation. Also when I was engaged in conversation with my partner, the straw was a great accessory to use to draw attention to my smile.

• Third night out, I was invited to dine at a smoke house, again thankful for chicken

• Fourth night out, was game night at a pub. I ordered naked wings with celery, no dips or starches added and lots of tea and I kid you not the waiter was a 20-something young buck and at the end of the meal he complimented me on my healthy appetite. I had ordered the medium size basket of naked chicken wings and I ate them all. The male waiter gave me full body attention his chest was facing me, he placed one hand on the back of my chair (never touched me) and gave me a full face smile with eye contact. All of this was in front of the people I was dining with. This is a good point to mention that after a year of being thin, I was still shocked at being treated as a normal human being. Fat prejudices exist, I know from being fat for the past ten years. It is such a confidence booster to be seen; I mean full on eye contact, smiling, I see you, you have been seen. 

• Fifth night out, was at a steak house, I ordered chicken with steamed broccoli, hold the butter. 

During the day throughout this week long trip, I knew that I would be eating at least one big meal a day, as in sit down and dine type of meal. I planned my calories out carefully each day. I drank lots of coffee, and took my time when I did drink my coffee. I made coffee time special not just fit it in.

Even though I don’t smoke, I grew up around people who did smoke and many of the students in my nursing program smoke. A person smoking a cigarette is centered on that task; they stop everything to enjoy that cigarette. It’s important to them. That is how important I made drinking coffee, knowing that this dark nutty beverage was helping me keep my healthy BMI.  

For breakfast daily at the hotel, I had egg whites and coffee. Some days all that was offered was old boiled eggs that I peeled, and other days it was omelets. The point is I didn't care as long as I could control my calories. You might think that one can grow old of chicken, but let me phrase it this way. What would you give up, put up with, get bored with, to be thin?  Get the point; nothing is as important as health. Nothing!

For lunch, I usually ate a small salad. 

I have a fire in me that is my strength to choose to be thin. To stay thin is harder for me than other people. So What? You can whine all you want and make excuses but the truth is if you are over weight its your own fault.

My daily challenges at staying thin

1. I am blood type O, cave man, eat meat blood type

2. Due to an unexpected illness I lost 60% of my pancreas, so if you think your metabolism is slow, try my metabolism for a day. 

3. I have joint related aches and pains

4. I am a recovering addict to sugar (I cant stop with just one bite, so I simply do not take that one bite. Plus, just one bite shoots my blood sugar up like a rocket) 

5. I am a middle aged female, pre-menopause

A personal journey of losing a 100lbs. Chapter Two: Own it
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